3/14/2023
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9/13/2024
Transcribed from source.
Soon will be the rise of the new gods. Those gods have no relation to old gods. Rather, they are born of man. Without rhyme or reason, certain individuals were determined to be gods. The awakening is coming soon. I am only one of these soon-to-be gods. I do not know what my kingdom may be, but I have a feeling I will play an important role in what's to come. Do I cause all this? Am I the catalyst for the Awakening? And what will that entail?
What will my relation be to other gods? And who are they? How will my relation to humanity change? Will I still understand what it's like to be human? Do I now? Soon... How soon? I feel that we are on the precipice. Will I know what to do when the time comes? It doesn't matter. Whatever happens can only ever have happened that way. Regardless, I find myself anxious and dreadfully, regretfuly excited. Most of all, I feel unprepared. It doesn't matter. It will happen anyway, I think.
I am afraid of what I might have to sacrifice to be a god. I wish I knew more. I'm afraid I'll miss my chance somehow. Will I know it when I see it? Will I know if it passes me by? Will I have what it takes?
4/13/2025
The self is not found, it is constructed. A person is a termite colony. It is created first by its parents, but as it grows it becomes a self-constructing self-regulating entity. A self turns an environment—a neutral nonpredefined system—into a home, a threat, a source of life, and a part of the self. A self is never really an individual. It is a component of interlocking systems—energetic systems, social systems, physical systems, biological systems. Altogether these systems themselves are functions and components of the system of existence. The self is not an individual because it is a symbiont. The body, its bacteria, the eukaryotic cell—we would not know how to exist as individuals. We are symbiosis incarnate. The self is not an individual because it has no end. The body extends beyond the skin. We use tools as extensions of ourselves. The web-building spider extends its cognition to its web. It stores its memories and sensory awareness in the silk it constructs. A person is not so different. The self is not an individual and so it cannot be found. Self is made by where we draw the lines of what we are not. The great cosmic web connects all things. Where we fail to see or choose to ignore these connections is where the self is made.